Sometimes I just feels that I'm a failure. I'm so useless. I really wish to find a job but I just don't have the motivation. I still not sure what I want, what kinds of job I suitable or like. I'm still finding but I know I can't keep on finding, I needs to set down soon. I can't waste any more time. I wanna look for office job but don't know which kinds. Then I feels like going back to F&B line but normally I go interview and they will ask "you are a dipolma holder,why you choose F&B". I really don't know how to ask them. I really wanna find a job that I like and happy working with but it just seem to be too hard. Is it so hard to find a job that I like? Is my expectation high or I'm still not use to working life. I really don't know with my this dipolma cert, what kinds of job can I go for. I'm so lost. How I wish I can be busy with work. It's always good to be busy. But now I'm wasting my times everyday by slacking at home watching television show, surfing internet. That's is my life. What a boring life. I just feel I'm wasting my time in this way. Sometime I just wish I doesn't exist in this world.

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