Sometimes I just don't understand what my brother is thinking.
What the point of having a car since you can't drive it at all?
You bought the car just for the storage of your company goods? Can't be right?
so what if we need the car, you can't expect us to carry it up before we can use it.

I really hope my brother can stop making my mother worry for him.
Mum & dad is getting old, we cant always let them worry for us as we are an adult now
What we did, we must be responsible for it.
Don't always think its right for parent to support you till you old.

Watched 我愛黑澀會--沈建宏整人計劃,he said its really stressful and tired to handle both studies and career at the same times which touched me. I cried as it reminded me of someone.

"就想赖着你" 和 "败犬女王"

看了"就想赖着你" 和 "败犬女王"
多希望能找到像项羽平和盧卡斯的另一伴
在你需要帮忙时，他会不管一切放下手上的事去帮你
在你难过时借你肩膀靠一靠
在你不开心时，尽全力逗你开心
可是在现实的生活有这种人存在吗？
世上还有这么好的男人吗？

看了"败犬女王"后
有时想想，我能接受比我小的另一伴吗？
如果能，是几岁呢？
曾经有朋友问过我这个问题，
而我的答案是“不知道，或许一两三岁应该可以吧，
可是思想和外表一定要成熟”
但是我们往往在遇到爱情时　结果都不跟我们所想的一样
我们通常都会凭感觉走

对了，我并没有这样的姐弟恋问题
信不信由你们，你们要把别人对号入座我也没办法

今天我的心情全被一位小气的人给破坏了

没有接你的电话是我的错？

没有回复你是我的错?

回复给她却没回复给你也是我的错？

即然你们打来都是为了同样的原因，

我当然只回复其中一位，有必要浪费时间再回复另外一位吗？

你不可以为了这种小事而生我的气，而怪我。

我还没怪你吵醒我

我真不明白，为什么什么事都要依赖我？

什么不懂都叫我，很烦咯

好了，不应该被这种人影响我的心情

Digital camera

Yesterday was too tired and went to sleep qite early and this morning saw my hp with 15 over missed calls..LOL.

Went to shop for digital camera. There are so many model, design and brand to choose. I'm having a headache on which to choose now but at this moment, the one that capture my attention was Samsung ST-60 and Samsung PL150. I really have no ideas which one is better as I'm quite a IT idiot..haha..Have not really thought of buying a digital camera until recently I found that the sound of the video that I recorded using my hp was really bad. So I guess it is time to get a digital camera.

(Photo taken from google)

PS: Why am I having such feeling? Why my heart will feel sour when I saw his status

Song for the day:

等待......

前天的心情真的是很底，一整天忐忑不安，心不在焉，魂不守舍。
等待等待还是等待，等待的时候是最痛苦和漫长。

一回到家马上去FACEBOOK看有没有任何的消息
得知他手术顺利，希望他早日康复。

在手术的前一天，Elson 录制了一首歌
听的时候，心里酸酸的, 很心疼。。
从他的声音可以听的出，他唱的挺吃力的
现在只希望他好好照顾自己，
因为要工作还有妈妈不允许，没法去探望他

得知他今天已经出院了，
希望他好好在家休养，
好好把身体养好，快点康复



This is a message from Elson Soh before he went for surgery on 25 May 2010. He hope that everybody can be strong and fight with him, and he thanks everybody for always being there for him all these while.

在等待的时候, 是你们告诉我, 爱不单行别害怕!
谢谢你们, 在我最艰难的日子, 一起陪我勇敢对抗每一个低潮.
这是我在昨天录制的一首翻唱歌曲, 特别送给爱护关心我的朋友们.
我不知道以后的前景会是怎样, 但我知道你们都在这里陪着我.
我的明天, 爱并不寂寞, 因为我不再是一个人面对.
谢谢大家! 我爱你们!

苏奕铨留言

Elson is featured on last sunday lian he zhao bao. Wake up early and asked mum to get me a copy. He look nice with the black spec.

Tuesday was the last day of my manager. Bought a $100 plus watches for him. Shared among the colleagues. Wish him all the best. Take care!!

Elson's operation..God Bless him..Praying!!!

Haiz..Tomorrow is elson's operation. Haiz, so fast..tml is the day..but it still look like a dream to mi, I still cant believe it..everything seem to be so unreal to me..how i wish it wasn't true at all..but i really hope he will be fine..God bless him..Praying Praying

I really hope it wouldn't affect his voice chord and he will be fully recover after the operation and everything will be back to past. He will sing for us on stage soon. He will still be that cheerful, happy go lucky and I want to see him smile again.

Knowing that he had slimmed down again..haiz..I know it was very miserable as he couldnt eat anything as he will feel pain. I really don't know what to do. Just feel so pain for him.

Was listening to my imeem playlist and heard elson's song, interview with 933 and 933 birthday party interview/performance. Alot of memories flushed back. Still remember the first time i saw him, he was so nice and friendly.

Message for elson:

Elson not matter how tough or how long the route will be, we will be there although I didnt accompany you for the past few year. Dont worry and hang it there. Luck will be by ur side so dun think too much, u will be fine and God will bless u, we will be thre to accompany u through this period. Must hav a good rest and take good care of urself. Will be praying for u. Be strong..Jiayou!! :)

Dedicate song for elson at 933, 1 by dedication website and another by SMS but don't think will be read out.

你一点都不孤单, 我们会陪你一起奋战到底,这过程或许痛,　但让我们陪着你一起走过艰难，只要不放弃，下一秒有奇迹，我相信雨后天晴时一定会有彩虹。希望你手术顺利，早日康复，要好好好好的照顾自己, 我们会在你身边陪着你。。你一定要挨过去..我知道你很坚强，你能做到的，加油！！加油！！！

I'm really a person who is not good at expressing my feeling with word but I'm a emotional person.

Next, I'm so vexed and whirl. Don't want to think about it anymore so don't even mention it to me anymore. It's none of my business and its none of your business too. but I still choose the way my heart want me to follow. So just leave me alone..Please!!

Being frank is wrong? Being straight forward is wrong too?
I really don't know what to said......
Who to trust? Who to believe?

Song for today..I like this song. Everytimes I heard this version by derrick, my tear will start rolling inside my eyes. It touched my heart. And derrick was the contestant that I like during Project superstar 2007.

Stressful Week

Realised I had been typing chinese post for the past few day so I should blog this using my super lousy english..LOL

Just finished my project. Being a PIC is really not easy, very stressful and many things need to take note and remember. Still need to email this and that and also need to contact with client. Was busy doing with the structural part and I realised it wasn't simple as I think, there are many things needs to learn and also the formula things is making me crazy.

Had been having training for the past few days and it make me feel like I'm in poly attending lecture. I misses my student life. Miss the foods, the place we had funs, the lecture room, the access lab and more....I miss mensa hokkien mee, design sch western food and IT liang dou fu..I miss it.

Wanted to go back to sch for visit but the time is always crash with my working time. Wonder when can I go back? Looking for partner to go back too..who want go? LOL

Memories flashing back:
The time we spent doing and rushing for our FYP.
The funs we had during our in-house attachment.
Compare to working life, I feel that Student life is more relax and has less responsibility. When we are a student, we complain why so many report and assignment to do and when we starts working, we complain too. Perhaps human being will not be satisfied with the life they have forever.

Elson will be having his operation on next tuesday so let pray for him. Hope he will be fine and get well soon. Right now, I'm learning to be happy everyday, thinking positive, keep smiling. Time to straighten out my thinking too. I should not be upset of his matter. I believe that our happiness and smiles will bring luck to him. He already has his own problem, we shouldn't add burden to him by showing our upset, we must fight the war with him and stand by him. I does not wish that our worries will make him more worried about us, so all of us let stay happy and help him overcome this criteric period.

I like this song damn much, perhaps is because of the lyrics. A nice song to share with you all

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
原来时还能再度拥抱
爱你的人如何死守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了

谁会是我的守护天使?

谁会是我的守护天使?
在我难过时，谁会在我身边
在我哭泣时，谁能借我肩膀靠一靠
答案是没有，我只能一个人躲进厕所哭

最近的压力真的好大
大到我快受不了，快崩溃了

人心是什么？是人心叵测，还是肉长的。
或许每一种人的心都不一样
但我已看清了人心
当你有用处时，你就是宝
当你有无处时，你就是草

怎么现在没几个真心的朋友哦
当你需要帮忙时，每个人只顾自己
不是我的事，我不管
人难道都那么现实吗

有时我并不知道你是否真心的
但我希望我是错的
我应该给你机会
可是。。。。
我已厌倦所有的事，你是不是真心，我已不去想了

别人心里想的，你未必知道，
如今的社会，有几个是真心对待你的？
我根本没有答案

或许做人应该要7分坦诚，3分保留与防范，
没有永远的知己，唯一可以信托的只有你自己

最近这个问题一直出现
“人活着是为了什么”
为了体验悲欢离合，生老病死，
为了弄明白人为了什么而活着？
为了实现自身的理想、追求、目标、欲望以及价值。

有时觉的活得很累,很辛苦
很无奈伤心难过要哭泣
觉得我的人生很不公平，
但是我只能说　人生本来就是如此

没有一个人的人生是一帆风顺的,
我一直告诉自己要乐观对待
但我一直做不到

最近一直来这里报到

只因为心情很低落
微笑已离我远去

在同事面前，我尽量表现的很开心
但又有谁知道我内心的痛苦跟难过
我尝试把注意力放在别边
告诉自己不要一直想
但脑袋却不听话
一个人时侯，我的心是最痛的吧

不要不开心不要唉声叹气
要乐观一点 但说比做的容易
但是我能吗？

一个人独自等巴士，看着蓝蓝的天，人来人往的车子
心里想着“人生是什么，意义在哪？
简简单单，健健康康过一生有那么难吗？

有时想想，人生或许有太多不公平
人生有酸甜苦辣，有悲欢离合，有失落也有得意，
人生或许就像一场戏，所谓人生如戏，戏如人生！
无奈命运弄人 命运好像总爱捉弄人 不知如何是好
我除了感到无奈，我别无选择

我还记得你在我难过时，你跟我说过“人间有奇迹”
现在我真的希望人间有奇迹
奇迹会发生在你身上
虽然天有不测风云
但我相信人间有奇迹，暮色里也有七彩长虹
永远不要放弃

我想这里已经是我唯一可以把我内心所想的表达出来
只有在这里 我才能没有拘束 把心里想要说的一切都说出来
也许这样自己才会觉的比较好一点
有时真想找个人来诉诉苦 可是真的很难
只有文字才是最好的朋友。。。

"Life is like a movie...write your own ending." - (Don't give in, make your life what you want no matter what the obstacles)

每当别人不开心时，我都会给于关心
但在我难过时，谁又会知道
我的痛苦无人知

我真的很谢谢这位朋友的关心
在看到我在脸书的心情状况
他给于我关心
虽然我们已有一年多没联络了
但我想这才是真正的关心吧

谢谢你给于我的关心
you don so sad la
if u want a listening ear.. i would be here for you.. don so sad okay?
想哭就哭吧。。哭了也许会好过一些

我很想哭，但是我哭不出来
眼泪一直在打转 不肯掉下来
我的眼泪已不听我使唤

很意外 也哑口无言，
不知道要说什么好
你还是表现的很坚强
还会开玩笑
你一句“还是一样”让我感到很无助，很难过
但我听的出你内心带点难过
只是你不想表露出来
跟你说话时，我声音中带着哏噎
眼泪一直在眼眶里打转
我强忍着泪水，心里却不知说什么
我尽量不要表现我的难过
不想让你发现
但我做不到
所以我选择强言欢笑
但是笑声背后却隐藏着痛哭
只有选择早点结束谈话
才会是最好

生活很现实，很残酷，有时候让人觉得累，让人透不过气，很压抑

PS:你在避开我吗？希望我想太多了

给苏奕铨的话：

前天放工后买了新明日报因为有苏奕铨的报道。
没想到我第一次看到他的报道会是不好的报道。
在还没看到这则报道时，我并不知道他需要开刀
我也不知道事情有多严重　因为他总是表现出很坚强的一面　不让我们担心
但我知道他并不好受。
他是一个好人，有爱心也和孝顺
为什么这种事情会发生在他身上
难道好人都没有好报吗？

现在除了为他祈福，我真的不知还能为他做什么
希望他能快点康复
我想你应该不会看到　但我只想把内心的话说出来

给苏奕铨的话：

得知消息后，我一直尽量表现不要太担心你
可是我知道我熬不了多久，所以我选择强言欢笑
但是笑声背后的泪水是很苦很痛的啊~~~
我知道你也在强颜欢笑，一直表现的很坚强
我们总是害怕被人看穿我们，总是害怕别人了解自己的悲伤
或许强颜欢笑是自欺欺人吧，或许只是为了不让别人看出自己的内心
但是这样对关心你的人比较好, 他们也会不必那样担心你...

不知不觉认识你已快1年了，好想念过去的那些回忆
你是个很开郎的人，要加油，不要放弃
当我们不开心时，你都会逗我们笑
我好想念你的笑容和歌声
真的很希望你能早日康复
我们会在你身边陪着你，你一点都不孤单
一起奋战到底

希望大家一起为他祈福! 能在FACEBOOK 留言给他, 献上您的祝福.

Pray for the Light to shine! - http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=117213144967253



苏奕铨的师弟盈鹏和师妹毓庭录制了他／她们想对苏奕铨的话
看了之后，我的手鸡皮哥答了起来
是因为太感动了，同时也很难过。

对不起 朋友 我知道你很关心我
但我一直却把你的关心当成一种逼供
我知道我对你不坦承，
但只是因为我自己心里没有答案
我不想给没有确实的答案
我知道你对我感到失望
但我有时之中都把你当真心的朋友
我真的很对不起你
经过比此的坦承后
我知道你是一位对朋友真心 也很照顾和关心别人
希望我们经过彼此的坦承后，
你还会像以前一样
希望我们还是朋友

爱真的需要勇气 但我的勇气已消失了
或许当朋友会比较好
朋友会是一辈子的但情人却是很短暂
是该离开的时候了吧
发不出声音的感慨，选择作朋友的无奈。

五月中是我今年最讨厌的一个月份。我真的恨透了一切，我真的累了。。。。。
发生了很多事，我真的真的好无奈，我想我已开始感到麻木了

最近的心情不是很好，觉的好难过，好无奈，好无助，好压力，好烦
最近周遭发生了许多事，我不知道怎么办

好难过，好无奈，是因为：
为何事情会演变成这样，真的不希望看到这样
不要被人左右你的想法 也不要被别人的片面之词影响
正所谓手心是肉手背也是肉，我真的不知道该说什么好

好无助是因为：
发生了这件事，我除了安慰你，我不知道还能为你做什么
我的心是难过，但我不想再增加你的痛苦，
我知道你很坚强，你能做到的，加油！！

好压力是因为：
最近压力挺大的，被别人看的起是件好事
但同时也给了我很多压力
我真得好怕我不能胜任

好难过，好伤心是因为：
你根本都不相信我，你知道你让我好为难，
如果你不相信我，我会很难过
你有没有想过，你说那番话会让我很难过，
我不想说那么多了，相信与否由你决定,说在多你也不相信我
我已经累了，累了解释
人在江湖身不由己
希望你能了解

无论如何，我会跟从我的心。。。

I'm 1 year older...haiz

This year wasn't a good birthday year for me. The day before got the news of elson. Really don't know how I should spend my birthday, so just sleep until 2pm. Although the person that I wish to be there for me did not come true and I really though of giving up, I really can't hang on anymore. I'm really tired of it. I feel so miserable.

Thank for all the wishes at Facebook, Msn, SMS and Blog

Facebook: Kadon, Carol, Xingyu, Max, YP, Yiting, Penny, Alice, Elson, Shi xuan, Serena, Eliz, huilan, sinnee, cindy, Yuanzhuang, Xinping, Shi xian, Debbie, Nickky, Jacq, Shuping, Julie, Yoke, meiling, Rosaline, Jane, Chunmei, Vivian

Msn: YP

SMS: Shuping, Jacq, QingQing, Sister, Evonne,

Blog: Kadon & Jo (Although I don't know who is Jo but really thanks)

Thanks YP, Shuping, Jacq, Shi Xuan, Yoke, Meiling for the second wishes too..

I really must thank kadon as he was the one whose wished me 4 times..No one in my 20+ year wished me so many times..Somemore the last one was at 12am..Touched..He want to be first and last on ACTUAL DAY..feel so cute by his action..lol

I also want to thank elson for the card too although I haven't receive it. I really didnt expect it. Really thanks. Hope he will be fully recover after the treatment. Praying

Hope I didnt leave out anyone..if yes, i'm sorry..

At first I thought I will not have a single wishes at Facebook but I really didnt expect those people to wish me, some are just friend at Facebook and I don't really know them.

A BIG THANKS TO ALL OF YOU

没有结果的爱情是最痛苦的
喜欢一个人真的很痛苦好累喔
有时我真的不知道喜欢和爱的分别到底在那？　

或许喜欢一个人是不需要原因
喜欢一个人是可以包容他的一切
真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
爱你也不需要原因，

对你的爱，我不敢舍求什么，只想在我心情坏时，你会陪着我，关心着我
安慰和借我你的肩膀靠一靠 也可望你一声的问候或关心 这就足够了

Happy Birthday to me

Today is my birthday which mean I'm 1 yr older..haiz
Thanks for all the wishes at Facebook, SMS, MSN and blog.
Wouldn't be having any celebration today.
Will be staying at home to have a good rest...
Had been helping my colleague to do a project for almost 2 weeks plus
and the submission date was yesterday. Finally it's the end.

On Tuesday while on the way to work, I knocked against the electrical meter box outside my house. It was damn loud and painful. I just feel so stupid, had been walking that
way for so many yr so able to knock against it. It is still painful now....

Yesterday was his medical report collection day. Received a bad news that the doctor had confirm that it's a tumor in his throat but is beginning stage. He will be having treatment from next week. And hope after the treatment, he will be fully recover and sing for us. Hope the previous happy go lucky and cheerful of him will be back soon.

I'm trying to stay positive & not to be sad about it as life still go on. After this matter, I feel that Life is unpredictable 对于人生我已无言以对. We can't do anything. So all we can do is cherish what we have now.

也许我并没有想象中那样爱你

My birthday Celebration

It had been so long since I have my birthday celebration. It was fun....

So let the photo do the talking (Actually I'm just lazy to type)..haha

I'm afraid that the cake will fell

Is the cake nice? It taste nice too

4 candles = 40 yrs old? OMG..hehe

Birthday Card

Birthday wishes from my colleagues

My mentor prepared those foods, feel quite bad to trouble her..Got mee hoon, fried rice, hotdog, fried chicken and my favourite straweberry ice cream milk shake and I love it. Thanks

So now is birthday song time....

Preparation before the birthday celebration starts....

What is this guy doing?

TADA..he was drawing this..so sweet of him..thanks

Enjoyed myself and thanks for the celebration

I'm sad because......

I do keep my promise and blog about it. So don't say that I didnt share with you or you don't fren mi..LOL

I just feel sad when he said that. Sometimes I wonder do you mean what you said or are you joking with me. But all I know is what you said do affect me. I feel really upset. Sometime I wonder, do you say those words to the rest too? I know you cares for me, when I'm sad, you will show your concern toward me but I guess I'm not the only one and I don't think I'm that special one too. Perhaps with or without me, there wouldnt be a different or big changes in your life.

I broke my sis's perfume that day. Was quite afraid and upset as I afraid it might be a important perfume to her. So I was worry and keep waiting for her to be back from her fren wedding until 3am and I fall aslp.

I really don't know what is the definition of FRIEND. People always say "you are my friend" but I dont want just word or title, I want to see action. The way you show me doesn't make me feel like you are treating me as a friend.

Will they remember it? They doesn't seem to cares about me. I think they are just only entertaining me.

Sometime I really don't know what to do. 见人说人话, even if we don't like this person, we still have to act and treat them good. So someone might mistaken you that you are being fake. I really don't know what to do. Now I have this feeling 猪八戒照镜子，里外不是人.


Who is good to me, who is bad to me, I have no ideas? All I want is your trust......

Hello Fm Opening Event
Date: 8 May 2010 (Sat)
Time: 4-6m
Venue: Orchard K union

After so many days of dragging, I'm done with my long post. Went to Hellofm event last sat. It was my first time been to Kbox. Went down after work and meet shuping at somerset station. While crossing the traffic, it started to rain. Everyone just run and we was totally wet. Reached at around 330pm and sat outside. While waiting for the rest to come, elson reached. I was shocked when I saw him, he slimmed down alot. He really must take good care of himself.

The event started with a introduction of each programme & DJ, follow by 歌唱表演，罐頭劇場，模仿秀。

The event was fun and interesting. They have games session too. I was quite afraid when the DJ came down and look for audience to play games, I was praying "Please don't look or walk over here"..LOL

The part that I like was Kadon & max 模仿秀. Kadon imitate his idol Arron Kwok & Max imitate Show luo. Didn't know Kadon know how to imitate..Their performance was excellent, outstanding and deserves praise. Damn interesting and funny too and also kadon, max & steve perform 离开地球表面的表演也很棒，带动了气氛。Overall the event was funs but to me, I feel its too short. Perhaps becasue it was interesting and I hope for more..hehe Now I know why Kadon told me the event will be very funny.

Actually was quite sad that the voting competition was cancelled. Had been trying very hard to vote it but in the end, everything just wasted. No outcome..haiz







U R THE MAN James was there too. Saw him when I was went out and found this guy quite familiar. Didnt know it was him at the 1st place..hehe



Games time. This game was damn funny and tired. When the number shoot up 16, I was thinking who will be the one going to do that 16 turns and it ends up to be kadon. So poor thing. Acually 16 is nt the most, it even shoot up to 39, I was thinking OMG so many, the person who is doing 39 must be very tiring & giddy bah. In the end, kadon was the winner..


Hello Fm DJ


Shuping, me, shi xian & shi xuan



I like this cartoon of the DJ. Damn cute. It was draw by Kadon. I know he spended alot of time & effort to draw this. Really hard on you. 画的很好，把他/她们的轮廓都画出来了. I can recognise it. So talented right? hehe

Mandy, me, elson & shuping（Didnt chat much with elson too, luckily he reminded us to take a photo with him before he left for other event)

Kadon & me. Had a hard time taking with him. Took about 4 or 5 times before 1 was successful. In order to take this photo with him, waited for almost 30 mins plus for him. Actually wanted to have dinner with mandy they all after the event but was dragged and in the end, just forget it.

Didnt manage to take photo with YP. After I realise, he has disappear..LOL

Kadon, Max & Steve Performance

Actually I also recorded YP Performance but the sound of my video was damn CMI, can't really heard what he was singing. So will not upload it. But just feel so weird, compare to YP video, Kadon video was much better, at least can heard their singing. Weird.

After the event, we stay back for a small chat with the rest and everything ended at around 830pm. Max, Kadon & Serena went off first but in the end we saw each other at MRT station. So trained down with William, Joseph, shuping, Serena, Mandy & Kadon except Max, shi xian & shi xuan as max went to buy birthday card and shi xian & shi xuan taking the opp train.

PS; I do remember my promise to you. Will blog it soon. Sorry for the delete

Mother's Day

Bought this perfume yesterday. It was the most expensive perfume I had bought in my whole life. Feel quite pain but think just treat as a birthday present for myself. Actually wanted to buy Kenzo but in the end, found this not bad too so bought this instead.


Today was Mother's Day but I'm quite upset with this year mother's day. Everyone doesn't seem to care. I wanted to order KFC for my mum as she like it alot but called the delivery hotline, the line was busy so I went online to order but after searching, I have no ideas how to do it. So I told my mumand I can see that she was abit sad with it. And it make me upset to see that. Compare to last year, this year was really meaningless, in the end we just bought food from downstair..haiz

This coming sunday is mother's day. Its a day that we reward our mother for their caring and hard work. My dad always will send us a reminder sms and asked us not to forget to give my mum a red packet. Actually if he doesn't say that, I will still do it. Although the amount might not be alot but just the heart 诚意 that matter.

Looking at their white hair, I feel so sad sometimes. We are already 20+ but they still worry for us. Perhaps sometimes they might be abit nagging but this show that they cares for us. Sometimes I feel so stupid when I quarrel with them just for a small matter. Although I'm a shy person and I don't say love or like word to my parent but I do love them. I'm just not good in expressing my feeling.

Mother's day has been always near to my birthday. I still remember there was 1 yr, my birthday was on mother's day itself but I didn't get to receive 2 presents because I'm not a mother..sad

My birthday will be cuming in 1 more week, getting older and I think my mindset should change as the time grow. As for my plan on that day, I think I willl just take leave from work and stay at home to rest as no celebration is going on. Think it had been very long since I have a celebration, I didnt even celebrate my 21st bday at all. My dad said when you are 21 and above, no celebration..sad..

Recently craving for popiah. I miss it so much. Wonder where got sell popiah. As I know most of the place doesn't sell popiah anymore and I don't seem to see it nowaday. I love popiah alot.

Watched 败犬女王 just now and the 阮经天饰卢卡斯 touched me. So does age really a matter in a relationship? Will we be able to accept a guy that is smaller than you by 8 yrs old? Is the feeling the most important in a relationship? Is appreance important? To me, sometime I realise we always say " I want my bf or husband to be good looking, rich, must know this and that but when the person appear, its the feeling that matter. All his weakness will be seen to be a strength. How I wish I can find mine soon. Sometime I really don't understand LOVE.

为何你从来都不问我意见，难道我一点选择的权利都没有吗？我只能任你摆步吗？

Feel so uncomfortable

Oh no, didnt know that 9 may is mother's day, how can I forget it this year. Still haven't plan how to celebrate it but hope it wouldnt change my actual plan.

Today during work, suddenly has abit of feverish feeling, sometime feeling hot & sometime feeling cold. Feel so sleepy too but I did have enough sleep for the past few days. Wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit anything out plus feeling giddy nowaday. And having headache and neck pain which make me feel so uncomfortable now. Think going to sleep soon. Hope will feel better.